I’ve been sitting in the gray space for a few weeks now. It’s the space between what the fuck? And why? Nothing makes sense, I can’t focus. My head spins as I try to grasp a handle on everything. Admittedly grasping at straws trying to understand.
I know this space. I’ve been here before. It’s grief, it’s ugly, it’s dark and it’s so not fun. I feel it in my bones, the heaviness in my heart. The tension in my neck. The confusion in my brain.
